Exasperated!

This feels really weird becasue i havnt blogged for ages due to half terms and illness and all that jazz. I dont really have the time to explain much today becasue i am supposed to be revising i have a law exam on monday and also english ARGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I am suffereing from sever stress and apprehension. Watch out im in a very fiesty mood. GRRRRRRRRRRR

Hello world...

I just thought that as i havnt posted for ages id better write a little something for you all to read. However you may have noticed how nobody ever responds to this blogg anymore by posting comments so this is a pretty pointless excersize!

If you are reading this then you are probably incredibly bored, as am I.

if you decide that you wish to post a comment after reading this i will love you forever lol! ( now theres an offer you cant resist!)

Amber x

A small update..

Well easter was very busy what with singing , iceing messages on eggs and meeting up with people! I went to the cinema to see Mr Bean which was a dissapointment! Thankfully i went with Luke so it was slightly more bareable. I may be being slightly harsh but it didnt make me laugh very much and it was kind of predictable.

I went to Cirencester to meet up with DUDE!!! which was brilliant becasue we havnt seen eachother for ages, but we seem to be drifting apart which is a little bit sad. I think it has something to do with me having a boyfriend because we were really great mates before i met Luke, im not blaming anyone because i am happy with the people in my life at the moment. It could also be to do with the fact that we dont talk as often as we did and we share different cricles of friends too?! I dont know!!!
I was talking to someone on the phone last night and they pointed out that as people get older... as in progress from childhood to adulthood more promenently, they change because they are finding out who they are? he is going to uni this year so maybe hes already started changing?

* Roll on dinner time i feel sick :( *

I went to a dinner party the other day which was rather exciting! Ben decided that he would go to Rebeccas house and cook for her but somehow it turned into a dinner party with five of us which was really good. I have to say he is a very good cook we ate lentil soup, nut roast and vegetables and ginger cheese cake YUM!

I went back to college this week after the move from the old building to the new. Its a bit of a mess because i keep getting lost and it makes me worry alot. Added stress is not good at this time in the academic year! I think it wont be so bad when i get used to it but as it stands i think it sucks! The learning resource centre is probably the best bit becasue there are about one hundred computers which are all new so thats great.

I went to the AGM last night to present PGB's report about what we have been upto for the past year. Luke and i spent a day during the easter break writing a PGB report in the style of a comedy script. IT WAS BRILLIANT!!! It appears that Luke has a talent for writing comedy sketches!

Im going to get on with some work now

Amber xx

long time no see!!!

After a month of being unable to access a computer i am finally back online YAY!!!! i may not be speaking for awhile after this as i have hardly got enough time to breath let alone chat on here so this is probably the last message i shall write for a very long time. If you want t6o get hold of me my email address is Prettypolly13@hotmail.com hopefully i will respond to you. If i do not respond, dont take it personaily

Im in Sheffield :)

Good morning random people who read my blogg i hope you are all good?!!! I have been very busy with interviews, drinking cocktails and listening to very loud live music in the pub :) I have been taken out for my meals which was very nice ..... we went to a place called valley centertainment yesturday where there is a cinema and bowling alley and loads of resturants. We went to a place called 'Board walk' and ate chicken and you can draw on the table with crayons lol its fun.

I am looking foward to coming home becasue its all very big and scary in Sheffield becasue its a city and you could probably fit the whole of stroud in it 100 times over. I also went on a tram ride which was fun ( i have never been on a tram before) lol

anyway see ya sooon and i love you all lots like stairway to heavan Cocktails in a very big jug that i drank all by myself and had a tiny hangover the day of my interview oops! Thank the lord for paracetamol and pro plus :) xxx

My fishy .....

My fishy died and it was really horrible becasue i noticed him when he was dieing and it was oh so horrible. He was kind of floating at the bottom of the bowl and then all of a sudden his body would kind of bend awquardly and he was trying to move but he couldnt and it was nasty. I had to flush him away when he started floating at the top of the bowl.

I cried alot because i loved Eb even though he was just a fish..... now im slightly miserable......

I had one of thoses bad days yesterday and i was just wiating for the third thing to happen and that was it..... this is what happend before...

1) i put my make-up on and had a hayfever attack thingy and my mascara went all down my face and i sneezed a bit to violently and twisted something in my spine which now hurts..

2) I cycled my bike to college as i tend to do these days, i went down the bypass and got onto the pavement and then i noticed that i could hear a funny noise and it was because i had punctured the front tyre and it was so flat it wasnt funny.

3) Eb

so all in all yesterday was one of those crappy days....

OH MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS ME!!!!!

I have just realised that i havnt told you the best news ever ........ I HAVE BEEN OFFERED A PLACE AT BANGOR UNIVERSITY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! * celebrates * YAY!!!!!!!!!!! im so pleased i cant explain how happy i am its just sock rockingly great!!!!!!!

So yeah now i am completly over the mooon im going to go and do some dyslexia tests!

bye bye xxxxxxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

IM GOING TO SHEFFIELD!!!!!!!

WOOOOOO!!! yesterday i bought my ticket to Sheffield to stay with Holly YAY!!! im going to go up to Sheffield stay overnight and then go to Edgehill uni for my interview and then back to Holly's and then home again wooo!!

After being on the earth for 19 years i have finally and most definatly come to the conclusion that money is and arse.

OK?!

IM GOING TO SHEFFIELD!!!!!!!

WOOOOOO!!! yesterday i bought my ticket to Sheffield to stay with Holly YAY!!! im going to go up to Sheffield stay overnight and then go to Edgehill uni for my interview and then back to Holly's and then home again wooo!!

After being on the earth for 19 years i have finally and most definatly come to the conclusion that money is and arse.

OK?!

My very long journey to Bangor university....

Yesterday i got up at the crack of dawn and cycled to stroud where i caught the 07.14 train to cheltenham spar. Once i got to Cheltenham spar i caught the train to Crewe but there was a delay on my journery so i missed my connecting train to Chester. At this point i was slightly stressed to say the least becasue i had to the uni in an hour and i had an hour and a half journey to make and i was still wiaiting for the train?! Eventually i caught the train to Chester and then went straight onto Bangor where i was thankfully only 30 mins behind everyone else (i didnt feel guilty though becasue i phone ahead to say that i would be late) I was taken to this big seminar room where about 150 other people all applying for the same course as me were sat with there parents. I felt a little bit apprehensive becasue i was all on my own. We had a small tour of the site which looks amazing and then we were split into groups of seven for our interviews.

They took us all into a room with two people who gave us the interviews once we had completed a group task and a written task. I think i did ok... i dont know. I was the second in for my one on one interview and i think i babbled a bit becasue i was nervous but i answered all of the questions and i reiterated the fact that i have alot of background experience and teaching is the only thing i want to do. You may have heard me talk about EdgeHill being the uni i would love to go to but i think i like Bangor even more. I didnt realise untill yesterday that i would be able to pick up WELSH as a new language?!!!! That would completly rock?! so i am crossing my fingers that i get a place at bangor because it seems really great.

I know that it is stupid to get my hopes up because if i dont get into to Bangor or Edgehill then i shall be slightly gutted but i have a back up plan!!!

1) Get a full time job and save up alot of money.
2) Learn to drive.
3) Do any resits i need to get the grades i want.
4) Apply for uni next year maybe University of Gloucestershire Hopefully i shall be driving then?
5) save more money

So there is the reserve plan and its not all bad because i can learn to drive so thats a bonus?

anyway im off now i have to go and pay some bills and buy some shampoo!
I have just had my hair cut and it looks lovely in my oppinion! to those non observant people i have had it cut shorter and re-shaped.

Amber xx

Im screwed up....

Yesterday i came home from work and spent the majority of the evening in tears. I cant even explain why. I still feel sad today i woke up with puffy sad eyes and i looked like i hadnt been to sleep for six years. This is my blogg right? so i am going to write things in this space that i feel. I was very greatful to speak to Luke he some how manages to make me feel better and he understands what im talking about. Sometimes i do feel as though im a bit of a burden i know (i can hear de ja vou too) but i cant help how i feel. i feel as though i put in so much effort into my relationships with people but i still feel insecure. I dont understand.

Im going to tell you what happened yesterday...

Yesterday was results day for my psychology module ' Psychology in Crime' and i had to go and collect my results at 10.00am. We got to the exams office and the actual results hadn't come through so they had printed the results off of the site and given them to us. :( I got a U. I felt really bad about that, but the other boy who came with me got a U too. I then discovered from the head of sixth form that out of a class of ten, only 2 people got E grades and the rest got U or X which means they didnt score any points.

I was thinking about it last night and if its any concilation which it isnt, i got a high U only needed 5 marks for an E?! So at the moment i feel pretty crap about the whole thing becasue it means extra work and i am having enough trouble with taking in all the information for my other subjects.

I bought my train ticket for my interview in Bangor which is good so i can definatly go, the only thing will be getting there coz i have a feeling it isnt going to be plain sailing... or trainining as the case maybe??

I have to go now so i will no doubt see you all soon xox ( some sooner than others as they live in Sheffield!)

Im still here .....

Its crazy but i have been so busy over the past week or so that i have had no time to blogg. * hangs head in shame* so now im back. YAY!!!!

Today is not a good day for reasons i do not wish to talk about at the moment becasue i am up to head in stress and i cant write it all down. Yesturday was crap too i blame the woman in the shop.

I am going to go now as i think i might get carried away and YELLLL!

thank you for listening come back when im not so stressed!

Reality check ....

Last night i was thinking about stuff and i suddenly realised that the way im going at college at the moment i am likly to finish my last year with absolutly nothing. Thats scarey. I really need to get my act together and work but thats easier said than done. My english teacher discovered that i was dyslexic last year and since someone has picked up on it, it seems to be more noticable to me and getting worse. I find it really difficult to get all of the stuff in my head out whether it be on paper or spoken. This is a symptom for dyslexics and its getting worse for me.

I know what i want to write in my essays but i cant physically get it out of my brain onto a piece of paper. I used to be able to manage fine but not anymore. Im frustrated because i know what i want to say only i cant say it! This is also why i am having trouble in my law lessons becasue there i so many facts i need to know and my brain just is not absorbing them at all? My law teacher has spoken to the woman in charge of learning difficulties and she is going to get me statemented so that i get extra time in exams and stuff. In one respect this is good but on the other hand i have managed all these years without it?!

I have two university interviews coming up soon and its all very exciting becasue i am going to have to travel by train all the way to Wales and make 4 changes which i have never done before. I think this could be one of thoses stressfull moments? i dont do well under pressure lol what if i miss a change? lol Anyway i have two weeks to worry about that. I have managed to find a ticket to Wales which will cost me £56.60 which in all honesty i cant afford because i have bills to pay and stuff so fingers crossed i still have enough to get there or else i will be " throwing away an opportunity" which is very true.

The ticket to Edgehill uni is only £41 so im not that worried about it becasue there is about a weeks difference and i will have enough saved up in my wages. The problem with my trip to Wales is that i had a week off of work and so im a week behind with my wages which means that i am going to get hardly anything this week becasue i was ill when i got back from outward bounds?!! So basically im screwed. I owe my dad two weeks rent as well.....

To change the subject quite dramatically im loosing weight which is great i can certainly notice a difference in myself but ill know more when other people notice too .. lol i cant wait it will be good to drop a dress size YAY!!!

OK im done with the ramblings above so keep in touch and i will see you soon ( even if that is only in cyber space!)

Amber xx

Hello? is there anybody there?

Im back !!! i was on that outward Bound course i was talking about befroe and it was absolutly 100% wicked!! well the day time was anyway the nights more or less sucked.
I survived a night in a log cabin with a bucket for a loo and a really big rain cloud. I went for a walk in the forest which was wickid! I did a 10 mile 5 and a half hour mountain hike and i was at the front the whole time I LOVED IT!!!

On wednesday i went rock climbing at the beech and i also did absailing 40ft up which was quite scarey. I am still scared of heights. I did an irish jig about 30ft up in the air so that i didnt have to climb to the top and catch a trapeze??? ( its a long story!) Then i went and built a raft to sail in the sea with nine other people on it! And after that i had to make a zip wire that went across this big stretch of deep merky water!

Thats basically what i did and i had so much fun. All my eczma went away and now that i have returned i have even more of it :( BUT IT ROCKED!!!

I went to see Hot fuzz the other day and i found it really scarey and my wonderful boyfriend pointed out on his blogg that it was fake and i was a bit of a whimp! lol I was expecting a comedy and it turned out to be really gorey. I have to say i spent most of my time with my hands on my head or hiding behind them!? at least i didnt scream out loud???

This is the first blogg since i returned and i will be back but right now i have to do an essay ready for tomorrow? LIKE THATS GONNA HAPPEN!???

OMG

Firstly i woke up this morning and there is about 7 inches of thick white snow outside which is very cool..... and very chilly. So i have walked to college to discover that my lesson was cancelled anyway? good huh? I have finished my english coursework and then i got an email.

The email was from UCAS telling me that somethings have changed on my application status so i went to check and it says that my apllications for Sheffield Hallam and Hull were unsuccessfull. HOW GUTTED AM I? two in one go is a bit mean they could have left a little bit of hope couldnt they?

Im going home in a minute coz im a little but pissed off and a little bit worryed now, what if all of my universities decide the same thing? IM SCREWED.

Im tired and i want to go home..... lol

I was just thinking about when i was little and me and my sister used to play games with each other. When mum was a student she used to have to buy lots of text books so me and Holly used to sit in the dinning room with a broken computer key board and mountains of mums books and pretend we were in a library or a book shop. We used to make mum come and pretend to buy books from us. Apparently we had a good use of imagination when we were little becasue we used to put the ironing bored up outside our bedroom door and pretend to sell things to whoever happend to be trying to go to the loo in piece. ( my bedroom door is opposite the toilet.)

Ha ha that reminds me of something else we used to do when mum was alive... lol this is rather weird but when the loo roll was finished we all used to right messages on the empty roll for each other. ( your probably thinking OMG FREAK!) OMG and Holly used to host an imaginary radio show called ' TOILET FANS' when she was on the loo LOL HA!

I was such a brat to her i bet she was glad to move away when she did. i cant help but think that i am fake. I was a spoilt brat and the only reason i dont get what i want anymore is becasue mum isnt alive? I dont know if that statement is true or not. I dont think the person i am and the person you know is fake? There are so many things i miss. i know this must get boring becasue it keeps coming up every once in a while. Im feeling sad.

THe Pursuit of Happyness..... My review...

Good morning wonderful people and how are you today????? I am absolutly faqbulous apart for the fact i have a head ache becasue the video kept jumping in english! Last night i went to see The Pursuit Of Happyness with L, its a very good film and the storyline is alright if not a tiny bit tooo long. Will Smiths son is sooooooo cute! Bless him. Yeah so it was good lol thats all i have to say!! OOOOH the ending was shockingly short and i think they should have showed their lives ten years on so we could see how they were managing and stuff. Maybe they should have brought the boys mum back into the storyline too????

Its Thursday. I have to go to work. Once i have been to the canteen to eat lunch. what am i going to eat? i think i liquid lunch sounds much better? only joking! ..... i have to sort out my money issues with my boss. Bummer. OH well shit happens.

See you all very soon..... i might sneak up on when your not looking and give you a very big hug? who knows??!

* Yawns*

I have been at college all day today and i am very tired and very hungry now! I have been writing up my english course which, apart from the hiddious spelling mistakes is actually going rather well! Im a bit worried becasue someone who sent their ucas form the same time as me has already got an interview and i havnt? :( hopefully i will get an interview soon! I havnt exactly thought about how im going to get to these interview destinations as all of them are hundreds of miles away!?! ( I didnt think of that!?)

Im going to the cinima later to watch the pursuit of happyness... i havnt been for ages so it should be good and L is coming with my so thats even better!!!

Im off now see ya soon and if you do nothing else today COMMENT ON MY BLOGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!! * points disapprovingly at you through the comoputer screen*

Blagged from L i want to know your answers...

COMMENT DAMN IT!
1. What's your Name?
2. Are we close?
3. What do you think of me?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. What would you change bout me?
6. Do you think we'll be friends in three years time?
7. Describe me in 3 words?
8. If u Had Me for 30 Mins wat would you say to me?
9. What was ur first impression of me?
10. Do u still think the same?
11.. What reminds u of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do u know me?
14. What do u like best about me?
15. Ever wanted 2 tell me something u could'nt?
16. Could you ever love me?
17. Give me a nickname and explain why?
18.Anything 2 say b4 u go?

Do you need to laugh? read this!

I was thinking of things that made me laugh becasue i was feeling a bit down in the dumps so i was reading old posts on my boyfriends blogg and look what i found ....

Bogsticks
One of A's more funnier sayings is "bless you with a bog stick."Apparently her friend went to say bless you with a big stick (a saying from A's other friend Dude) which A uses regularly, but actually said bless you with a bog stick. This is so random it makes me laugh. (A would say it makes me giggle).If anyone know what a bog stick is, or has a definition of a bogstick that they are willing to lend me, please leave me a comment and tell me, as I would love to know your thoughts on what a bogstick is, and what you think of a) the object and b) the saying.Don't forget:"Bless you with a bog stick."----------------------------------------What makes this even more funny for me (and A) is that this saying can be particularly linked to me and A, because of what happened on one of our walks. [I am considering putting this on another post, but as it ties in with the above, I'll keep writing it here. You can always imagine it as a new post anyway. (That is what the dotted lines are for; they separate one idea from the next - "the start of a new post")].We were on one of our walks, going somewhere or other and we had walked up a steep hill and were looking for somewhere to eat lunch. In a field, there were a clump of trees, which looked like a good place to eat lunch, so we went down to them. This involved walking down a very steep hill. When we got to the bottom, we thought it looked like a nice place, to sit and eat lunch, but it was actually a bog. To cut a long story short, instead of going back round the bog, I decided we should go through it. I did this, by jumping to bits of grass that looked solid enough for me to stand on, and I got across. A went to go, but fell down into the bog. The mud went right up to her knee, and her shoe was covered in it.So when I say "bless you with a bog stick", she replies "don't talk to me about bogs". lol!

Incase you didnt know 'A' is me! anyway no matter how many times i read it, it still makes me laugh so i thought i would share it with you!

ps...... Sorry for pinching it off of your blogg L!

I did it..

I thought i was going to sit in front of my paper a cry becasue i didnt know any of the answers. The good news is i sat the modual exam and at least i wrote some stuff down. I still doint think i have passed becasue you have to be able to recall lots of random facts and studies to get a good grade but at least i wrote 8 pages of crap right? wrong. I definatly wrote alot but what if it was just crap? Inevitably it was just crap but hopefully crap can score you some marks?

I have to say i have an incredible sense of relief but im not expecting anything above a U! Anyway back to work now so i will keep you informed with the results!? as if i want to!

Its Friday!!

Hey peeps how are you all doing?? its friday and i have nearly made a full week at collage for the first time in what seems like months due to health problems and general unhappyness. I am ( although it seems like a normal thing to do ) very pleased with myself :) I have been trying for ages to re- motivate myself to do better with my work at college and finally i seem to have had a kick in the right direction!

I have also had my hair re-coloured and re-styled yay! but i always find it annoying when you get home from the salon thinking yeah my hair is great, then you wake up in the morning with bits sticking up all over the place and you think, YUCK what the hell have i done?! I suppose it just takes some getting used too!

My plans for the weekend:

Saturday: Im going to work all day in the shop and help to train the new girl which should be good, there arnt usually three of us in the shop at the end of the day so it will be a bit of a novelty!!

Saturday evening i am going to chill out at home and do absolutly nothing...... actually the demond inside my head is voulenteering me for psychology revision :( Either way im going to go to sleep early!

Sunday:

Get up at the crack of dawn to go to church and socialize with my friends and then i will definatly go home and revise.

SO that is my exciting weekend planned :) ( roll on half term)

Have a good weekend see you soon Ambies xx

A horrible day or two!

Im one of those people who thinks the week starts on Sunday?! (am i right or am i just weird?! please let me know) anyway, i ended up in casualty on sunday morning because i thought i was having an asthma attack which scared me becasue i havnt had one of those since i was about 6. It turns out that i was just hyperventilating. This dude in disguise as a doctor started chatting on to me about life coaching and asking me questions. All of a sudden i started breathing properly and it was all over so that was good. So it was a Panick attack sort of thing which i have never had before but maybe it has something to do with me getting to stressed about things?

I had an absolutly diabolical day on monday when i discovered that Orange had taken twice the amount out of my bank account to pay for my contract phone. This ment that instead of taking £42 they took £84 causing me to go over drawn by £33. NOT GOOD. I rang up Orange who were extremly unhelpful and they said i needed to go to the bank and sort out getting my money back. The bank said that i would have to pay £30 charges for going over drawn and then an extra £30 for everyday my accuont was over drawn! so i was looking at nearly £90 of charges not good when you are POOR!. The woman at the bank then suggested that i could have an overdraft of £50 whioch would cover me for the chargtes if they could set it up that day but i needed someone to fill in this stupid form. Anyway i spent my lunch hour in the bank feeling crappy becasue i was in a mess i couldnt get out of quickly. So i went back to work and it turns out that Alisha was able to fill in the form and i got my over draft YAY! so im not in trouble anymore.

I went to my psychology lesson in the evening and i suddenly realised that i know nothing at all and for the modual exam i am entirely screwed up. I am going to cross my fingers, cram and hope for the best. It was also the last day for ucas applications so i went to the library and sent off my application. About ten minutes later my dad phoned up and read a message off of the home phone from the person at college who deals with the applications and she said i needed to check my spelling errors. It was too late. So i have sent a shockingly bad form to UCAS and i dont stand a hope in hell of getting into a uni.

By the time i got home on monday i was feeling really incredibly low so i phoned Luke. I feel so sorry for him, he had me yelling with frustration, being really tearfull and completly messed up in his ear for nearly and hour. Its sounds really weird but you know you've got something special when you can be on the phone to somone and nobody says anything at all, but its just comforting to have them there, silence can say alot sometimes.

Tuesday was alot better i had a day off and tried a little bit of revision and i went to youth forum which was alright, loud as usual.

I have high hopes for this week i plan to get a lot of work done becasue i have a lot of deadlines to meet between now and next week.
see you all soon xxx

I've dropped it!

At last i have got rid of the noose around my neck other wise known as World development!! i have been struggling quite a bit with the work load and everything else including my not so stable mental health! ( im not saying im crazy but my thinking patterns are seriously screwed! eg crying for no apparent reason, thinking that sleep is good instead of college) So i had a very long chat with my form tutor and i have asked her to withdraw me from World development. She then proceeded to give me a ahate to say i told you so leacture. ( She doubted me from the start HOW RUDE!)

I have to go now becasue i have a very boring law lesson to attend but no doubt i will see you all soon ......... Thats a threat and a promise lol

Ambies xxx

Hey all

Good morning and a happy Thursday too you to. I cant believe how boring all this work is, its enought to send anyone crazy!!! I have been given some really crappy deadlines from college which are really strict! YUCK! I have an exam in two weeks, its only a module but still i dont want to fail it. I was convinced it was supposed to be tuesday so i went into college monday night for my lesson and the teacher wasnt there but i discovered that my exam is actually on the 23rd so its all good!

This blogg would like to wish all thoses going through exam stuff at the mo LOTS OF LUCK!!!

Take care, see ya soon and dont get stressed!

Amber x

My new plans.

Im getting close to finishing my sencond year of A levels which is a big achievment for me becasue i never finish anything! I think my results are going to be crap becasue things arn't going well for me at the moment. Im going to have to go back to the doctors becasue i still have a chest infection and i have almost finished my antibiotic. This means that i can arrange to have my blood test done becasue they want to find out why i keep getting infections. Dad is worrying me slightly becasue he keeps saying to me that the more antibiotic i take now, if i really need it in a life or death situation it wont help me?! ( great way to make me feel better about health problems!) I was randomly thinking the other day that if i have children one day they are likley to inherit Asthma, Eczthma, allergies and a wonky nose so its not looking good for my offspring really!

My boss keeps talking to me about training me up as her deputy manager which is brillient. I enjoy my job alot and its different everyday and i think being given more responsibility is great. So, once i have finished all of my A levels in june im going to try and get as many hour as i can at work and also get another part time job that fits in with my hours at Special occasions becasue i will have All day tuesday, wednesday and Thursday free? so im sure its not impossible to find a job flexible enough. I also want to start driving lessons and two incomes will hopefully provide enough money for me to do that. I hope to be driving my christmas, that would rock. Its all dreams at the moment though. Dreams can come true so they say?

I was supposed to be going straight on to university after my A levels but i think my immune system cant cope with going here there and everywhere every five minutes so if i have to part time jobs i will gain a bit of stability wont i?! Eventually i will go to university and gain a teaching qualification but that will be in a few years.

So thats the plan............... fingers crossed!

MY IQ is 109

Thats not bad for a dumb brunette like me what do you think?!

Random Questions I want over people to answer these too please....

1) What was the Best Christmas Present you recieved this year?
My best present was probably my grow your own christmas tree becasue all i wanted was for dad to put up a tree but no! So when i got my own tree i was very excited and it rocks my socks off. Although it looks a bit like a christmas bush rather than a tree but its so beautiful! Thank You L :) ( the straignteners rocked too!)

2) What was the worst Christmas present you recieved this year?
He he i wouldn't say they were the worst, i would say most unusual was Toaster bags lol! our toaster doesnt even work properly lol :) * Laughs loudly*
3) Whats the best thing thats happend to you in 2006?
Sounds cheesy but its Luke.
4) Whats the worst thing thats happend to you in 2006?
Bad health especially the eye thing, that really was hidious especially the white patch ( sexy lady!)
5) What are your New years resolutions?
I dont usually stick to them, but i would like to be a happier person, finish college forever and loose weight ( as usual)
6) What are your hopes for 2007?
I hope that 2007 opens new door for my career and i hope to be driving with my own car by 2008!

Christamas comes and Christmas goes ..... and as for New Year SOD IT!!!!!

Long time no blogg?!! been relaxing at home! ( Laughs hysterically if only that were true!) I have been busy working in my shop selling christmas card, chocolate and anything else buyable that the old ladies of Stroud can pass off as christmas presents! lol bless erm. College has not been high on my list of priorities becasue i have been ill? i dont know what it is exactly.

Christmas is always busy now a days becasue im in the church choir which is very exciting. I had to sing at Christingle ( the person who created the " song" " Its rounded like an orange" (should surley get the best seat in hell) midnight mass and the christmas morning too...

I went to work on christmas eve between services and by the time i got home early christmas morning with gifts people had given me, i just about managed to get in the door, however i am lodging complaints because i could have sworn santa does home deliveries? Thank You to everyone who gave me cards and pressies it was lovely :) ( especially my lush pink straightners and my fairy mug) lol

New Years eve i went to a party during the day where i drank white wine which james spilt on me and i played a really cool game with playdough which Luke and i lost Twice before winning the final round WOOO!!! I was invited to another party later on in the evening but i was feeling rather ill so i went to bed at 6 without any tea and watched the television for a couple of hours.

i came to college this morning becasue i was told i have a lesson and Guess what folks not Blooming lesson!!! NOT IMPRESSED! i have to stay here looking like im busy and if i go home dad will be ready to shoot me for not being at college so i might go to gloucester? But whats the point if i have no money?! GRRRRR @ FINANCES!

This is called how RETARDED am i?!!! OH GOD 45% Hangs head in shame!

1.[x] I have walked into a glass/screen door.
2.[ ] I have tripped on my shoelace and fallen on my face.
3.[x] I have choked on my own spit
4.[ ] I've seen the Matrix a bunch of times and still don't get it.
5.[ ] I type only with my pointer fingers.
6.[x] I have accidently caught something on fire.
7.[ ] I've told a cop to fuck off and gotten screwed for it.
8.[ ] I have attempted to sip out of a straw but it accidently went int my nose, rather than my mouth.
9.[x] Sometimes when I think of something funny, I laugh out loud and people look at me like I am weird. Happens all the time. BF's Blogg for example
10.[ ] I've caught myself drooling
11.[ ] I've accidently caused an explosion. *coughs
12.[ ] If someone says the word "fart", I can't help but laugh. (sometimes!)
13.[ ] I've turned into a "Do Not Enter" one way road plenty of times.
14.[x] Sometimes I just...stop thinking & zone out. Earth to Amber?!!!
15.[x] It is POSSIBLE to lick ur elbow well i dont think its impossible
16.[x] I just tried to lick my elbow. CRAP!
17.[ ] People often shake their heads and walk away from me.
18.[ ] People often tell me to use my "inside voice"
19.[ ] Gum has fallen out of my mouth while talking (that is soo anoying!)
20.[x] I [have used] my fingers to do simple math.
21.[ ] I've jumped off a moving vehicle
22.[ ] I ate a bug for $5 or less.*haha* I ate chicken gizards does that count?
23.[x] I'm taking this test when I should be doing something more important.
24.[ ]I repost chain letters because I'm scared of what they threaten will happen if I don't.
25.[ ] I've peed my pants when I was HIGH.
26.[ ] I've ran around naked when I was drunk
27.[x] I've searched all over the place for something, and then realized it was in my hand the whole time.
28.[x] I accidently break a lot of things.
29.[x] my friends know not to use big words on me.
30.[x] actually im fun to kick it with and laugh with friends like me because I'm fun to laugh at.
31.[ ] I cock my head to the side when I'm confused.
32.[x] Sometimes i start telling a story and suddenly forget what I'm talking about.
33.[x] I've fallen out of my chair before.
34.[ ] When I'm laying in bed, I sometimes stare at the ceiling and try to find pictures and words in the texture.
Instructions:Copy and Paste.Fill in the x's for youOnce you get your answer multiply the Xs' by 3 and you'll see how retarded you are, and put it in the title LOL!