Its only words part two:

These lyrics are special because they are so beautiful.

# No one can buy true love in their life,
we all need somone on standby.
The night drew long, you kept me strong,
now i can thankyou in this song.

You are my rock, you touched my soul,
You brought me light when all hope was gone.
You showed me the secrets that i could unlock,
You are my brother you are my rock.

No one can find new love in their life,
we all need somone untill we die. # Delta Goodrem

# When your on your own and all that you can see
is a small yellow and orange flame then smile and think of me.
Through the glow of warmth and light you will find
my very heart, keep that smile upon your face
and we wont ever part.# ALP

# Are you swimming up stream in oceans
of blue, do you feel like your sinking?
Are you sick of the rain after all you've
been through, i know what your thinking.
When you cant take it, you can make it
sometime soon i know you will see..

Coz when your in you darkest hour,
and all of the light just fades away,
When your like a single flower whos
colours have turned to shades of grey
well hang on and be strong.# Delta Goodrem

Dedicated to people who like to read lovley lyrics :0)

What an eventfull weekend?!

Hey how are you all i hope you are all fine and dandy?
i am just thinking about what a nightmare this weekend
has been! Worked sucked, the hospital service at church
made me cry and then we got the news that Carol passed away.

Gutting experiences this weekend its been so sad :0(
I need my mum to give me a hug i think :0(

They are so cute!

Im talking about my little cousins, i was walking absent mindedly around tescos yesturday waiting for my dad to give me a lift when i bumped into my aunty and three of my cousins.
It was so weird becasue Gorgie is nearly the same hight as me and shes only 9?
whats going on with that? Caroline is two and she is so LUSH!! She is like a lovable rogue,
she came to my 18th birthday party and danced all evening bless her!
Shes a bit of a menace but shes great :0) Then i saw Eric and eric is nearly 5 months old
and last time i saw him he was very much like a baby but i saw him sat in the trolly yesturday and he looks like the spitting image of my UNCLE! POOR CHILD!!! lol im kidding he looked
cute too!

AWWWWWWWWWWWW they are so cute when they are younger :)

It was really nice to see them again but i always want to tell my mum that i have seen
them and how they are? so a situation like that is really happy and really sad at the
same time if that makes sense?

anyway im late for tutorial see ya soon A x

Its only words .......

# ... to see you when i wake up is a gift i didnt
think could be real. To know that you feel the same
is a three fold utopian dream....# INCUBUS

#... You caught me as i was falling spinning
through the sky, the voice of an angel is
calling willing me to fly.....# LWGW

#....your my butterfly, dont fly away
hold out my hand your free, praying youll
come back to me. your my butterfly....# DELTA GOODREM

#... Starry eyes that gaze up high, looking
at the night time sky. Reflected in the moon
your face a floating planet full of grace..# ALP

Its only words .....................?

Evensong .....

I sing in a choir and we have recently had a new choir director and he is amazing at getting us to sing well. We did choral evensong the other day and we sounded amazing :0) im not kidding you should come and listen to us lol. (whoever you are)

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I was supposed to be in the Stroud news and Journal today but i looked early this morning and im not in it. :0) Im not that bothered becasue i dont like the picture they have of me so i have been saved for a week or so. The journalist came to my house the otherday to chat to me that was really weird.

I have a really bad feeling about today, probably becasue i have human biology :S i still hav'nt mastered the art of this subject and its quite depressing becasue i almost dread going to the lesson becasue its so long! IM NOT GOING TO DROP IT. I am not going to be a faliure/ drop out/ quitter/ useless piece of rubbish like i was last year or the year before!

I think i should stop raising my voice in captial letters but thats exactly how i feel ANGRY! I dont know why, i think it might have something to do with the death of my mum. I feel so cross. I want to stand on the top of a very high hill and scream at the top of my voice. I think i would feel alot better after that?

Im not weird honestly lol! im sure im not the only one who feels like screaming at the top of their voice?!! ( i hope not anyway)

I have decided im not going home after church on sunday i am going to find a hill to sit on and eat my lunch and then i am just going to walk and walk and hopefully end up at church for the hospital service!

im going to stop whinging now becasue people must get slightly fed up with it? but i do feel a bit better in my defence which is good :)

oooooh lyrics floating through my head at the moment .......

* .........some say that time changes, best friends can become strangers, but i dont want that no not for you if you just stay with me we cant make it through ......... Good Charlotte Rock My Socks Off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*

I have a guilty feeling :0(

UH OH! i skipped human biology today becasue i cant do it and now i feel overwhelmingly guilty :0( if i keep going on like this i am going to let myself down and i dont want to do that becasue i know i can do it. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! i feel so cross today GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! LOL You know its times like these when i really miss my mum coz she would say to me " dont worry start a fresh next week" or " i'll help you revise" or " dont worry you'll be fine " .

:0( doesnt it make you sad?

A good day

Who could have known that psychology isn't as boring as it appears? LOL i have just come out of a 6 hour psychology lesson and i actually feel like i have learned things today. We are revising for a big test next week along with a big human biology test too. We played really random revision games and we were put into groups it rocked my socks off ! :0)

Today is one of those days where i have so much to do and not enough time to do it! Im supposed to be getting a nomination form for student president becasue apparently i would be good at it. * looks rather worried* The good thing is that it would look amazing on my university application if i decided to go?!

I so glad i get paid on friday i will be dancing for joy i think becasue living without money is so awquard and indeed boring! I am taking advice from L who says i should put some away for a RAINY DAY! LOL (i would never go shopping in the rain!) lol i know what he means really! I am going to open a building society account and actually save money!! this is a very good theory!!!!! LOL

remember smiling makes the world go around....... and to quote a friend...
" if somone is missing a smile give them one of yours!"

I have been inspired.......

Isn't it funny how we can be inspired by one person who makes us want to do things i think its quite bizaare actually. My life is fairly random and over recent months it has gone through dramatic changes. So becasue of this inspiration i have recieved i have decided to blogg my life.....

let me put you in the picture....

My dad always says that lol :0) About four months ago i was an average 17 year old living in a family of four without a care in the world really. I was a bit like a spoilt brat to tell you the truth i used to rely on my mum for everything. I was really close with my mum and i didnt have a particularly good relationship with my dad becasue i was so close with mum. Anyway mum got ill and to begin with the doctors said she had a virus but four weeks later she was admitted into hospital and diagnosed with a brain tumour.

She stayed in Gloucester royal hospital for a week and on a friday evening they eventually told us that she was terminaly ill and only had months to live. Talk about a shock! They told us that she needed to see a neurological surgeon who might be able to operate on her brain but if he couldnt then she would die.

It was the day after that when my family were gathered around mums bedside that they told us they couldnt operate becasue there was more that one tumour. I remember going to my youth group the same day as i found out. I was so upset and miserable but thankfully my friends are amazing and they helped me through.

The following week mum was moved to our local hosptial so that we wouldnt have to travel so far to see her everyday. She deteriorated rapidly after the move and four days later she passed away.

Mum was only ill for a month and a half before she died which was a real shock as before then she was perfectly healthy.

So you can see how my life has dramaticaly changed over the past few months. I think i would like to dedicate my blogg page to the memory of my mum becasue i cant tell her all the things i have been doing and how i feel but i can show her.

* dedicated to Kim Prosser died June 2nd 05 aged 46 * ( i love you mum)