The Eyes have it...

If you know me really well then you will have seen me recently with a patch over my left eye! I have an infected eyelid which has caused me to look like i have been punched in the face when in fact i have not!!!! Anyway its getting a little bit better now and i just hope that it stays away becasue it sounds like i have been making a fuss about nothing but it was actually very painful.

UPDATE WEIGHT LOSS:

I havn't lost any more weight yet but i have been eating chocolate since i have been ill but i have lost inches and my clothes fit rather well now ( i need to wear a belt lol)

IM SO EXCITED becasue Holly is coming down in like 20 days WOOHOOO so that will be great to see her again!!!

see you all very soon xxxxx Ambies

Its children in need .......

IM A CAT! its rather scarey somone nearly crashed their car in Tesco car park becasue they were watching me! lol some people are so sad!

Anyway i have raised nearly £70 but some people dont seem very forthcoming with their sponsor money GRRR

i will update when im not feeling in such a catty mood LOL ha ha ha Have a PUrrrfect day !

Weight loss update!

I HAVE LOST FIVE POUNDS IN TWO WEEKS!!!!!!!!!! (is very proud of herself)

Im not starving myself either which is good and it seems to make me feel a bit better about the way i look which is great news! People probably dont understand what im babbling on about but seriously if somone pays me a compliment i might actually be able to take it now instead of laughing loudly or making an excuse! lol You should try and pay me a compliment and see how i respond lol I DARE YOU!!!!

UNIVERSITY!!!!

I am getting very excited about going to university! I still havnt quite decided whether i should go this coming year or the year after but im certainly making progress. So far i am in the process of writing my personal statement( which is a bit of a disaster) but never mind! i have found my top seven universities which i am going to apply to ( i have to pick 6) they are ( in order of preference)

Edge Hill in Lancashire.
Sheffield hallam university.
Durham University.
Brighton University.
Hull University.
Gloucestershire University.
UCE Birmingham University.

Its all very exciting accept for the fact that when i eventually decide to go, there are certain people i will have to leave behind and that is a difficult concept to come to terms with. :( Im going to think of it like this though....
Sometimes in life, people have to make decisions to benefit themselves. I think that moving to a university will certainly benifit me because as you lot already know i dont get on to well with my father.
Also i will be able to come home at the weekends to see people which i definatly plan on doing alot.
It will only be for three years and i will get the summer holidays and things to spend with people to.
Another thing is that i shall probably move back to gloucestershire when i am qualified to find a job! ( i wont be gone forever)

I'll always have L as my magic number which is good because out of everybody in the entire world he is the person i will miss the most :( ( might miss dad a bit too! and Missy K ma BITCH!)

I have just had an english lesson which was really great. We are studying a dramatic play called 'OLEANNA' which is absolutly brilliant. I could go on analysing it for days it is absolutly super! The best thing is its going to be my coursework and i have a good understanding of it so therfore, thinking logically, i should be able to get a decent grade for it!

I shall have to go and eat lunch soon becasue i have a world development class in an hour and a bit and i really need the loo!

Anyway peeps, let me know what you think of my uni choices and please keep commenting because its always good to know what other people are thinking!

Love you all xxxxx

There just isn't enough time ....

This is so random but i seem to be having extreme difficulty writng a sentence down without my dyslexia messing it up! I cant even spell bannana for goodness sake or is it banana? i dunno. I have this rediculous problem with my nose at the moment in the sense that it wont stop running! GRRRRRRR...

currently im giving rudolf a run for his money :)

Anyway i need you help with something right this second.

I am going to be raising money for children in need on friday the 17th of november and i have been asked to dress up. LOL I need your help to decide what i should dress up as...... bearing in mind i have to be able to wear it to collage and work.
my ideas so far are...
A cat.
Naughty school girl ( suggested by my perverted friend)
A witch ( that was so last year)
A rabbit.
lol i think i need help any suggestions feel free to comment.

see ya soon Amber x

Its monday! wait a sec... its actually tuesday?!

Oh dear lol! I practically jumped on the scales on monday morning and i have lost 3lb's !!!! A WHOLE 3lb'S lol WOO im so proud of myself!! :)

erm im in my psychology l;esson pretending to type up my essay but im actually blogging does that make me a bad girl?!!! i think is possibly does.

oops just been caught BYE xxxx

Thank goodness its friday!!!

* sighs* I am so glad its friday because although i have to work i will get to spend time with people i choose to rather than people i have to! I dont know about you, but it makes a difference to me. I am just having a break from law at the moment and we are learning about the civil courts which is rather exciting?! I like law but its rather tricky to comprehend.

I had a bit of a funny day yesterday, i went to college for my english lesson but part way through i felt really ill. ( Girly issues) I had really nasty stomach ache and i felt really spinny. I went home, i was supposed to be starting work at 11 but i was struggling so i phoned up sick. I had never felt so grotty before but i literally couldnt keep my head up and i felt incredibly tired all of a sudden it was not very nice. I eventually got home and i had to walk from the corner shops to my house and i couldnt do it without stopping several times. I was a little bit scared coz i have never ever been like that before. I got home and slept solidly for three and a half hours. I phoned up work and then went in for the evening because i felt much better. I had a migrain as well coz when i woke up my brain feeling odd and a visual disturbance thingy. All in all not a great day!

I am going to buy some cue cards today so that i can start learning things for my psychology exam and also i might do the same for law coz then i can see how good, incredibly bad i am and how much work i need to do to get a good grade?!

DIET UPDATE! I am so proud of myself, i have been on this diet for a week now and i have had no off days and i am actually looking forward to standing on the scales on monday morning!!!! of course i will probably update you with my moments of happyness on tuesday sop watch this space!

LIFE IN GENERAL:
At the moment my life in general is alright. I'm not satisfied with it completly but i could be a hell of a lot worse! I'm living with my day so there is only two of us in the house when it is full and as a mentioned the other day it can be quiet hard living with just one other person. I stated before how much i dislike christmas now that mum isnt around but i am looking forward to Holly coming down to see us because she is another irriplacable person in my life and i am now beginning to realise just how much i value her.

Anyway enough of the deep philosophicals, im off to learn love you lots A xxx

Remember, remember ....

I was just commenting on my sisters blogg and i just feel like i should write some stuff down. Sometimes i like the fact that i have a long distance relationship with my sister because we seem to get on a lot better, but i often find that its lonley being just me. When i get home from collage there is noone to say ' hi' or yell at me for disrupting the peace and quiet. I miss Holly not being in her room playing loud heavy rock music with her head firmly placed infront of the computer.

When we were younger we never used to get any pocket money really but mum used to give us something when she could, even if it was £1 between the two of us. We used to get dropped off in town and spend hours wondering around the shops together. It was fun.

I was standing in tesco this morning and i walked down the christmas isle and i remember how excited i used to feel about christmas. I used to go on and on to mum about what i wanted for christmas and it used to be lovely to chat about it with her because she would get this sparkle in her eye because she loved it just as much as me. I have to say now that things have changed i really dont enjoy the thought of christmas at all because its just alot of extra time to feel lonley and think about what i no longer have. I know that is a pesemistic way to think of it but i really cant help it.

Isnt it funny how little things can trigger off memories that feel so raw and vivid. I was walking past Mcdonalds this morning and it made me think about mum and Holly and we would sometimes go in together and sit and chat. :( i miss it so much. ( i cant begin to put into words just how much becasue no matter what i say it wont emphasise this huge void)

Music speaks a thousand words but i can't find the right words to use. I feel a bit blank.

I need a hug please ?

Happy Wednesday!

Good morining to all of you who look like frozen statues because the weather has taken to being rather cold! I have just got to college and i am on day three of the big diet (WOOOOOO!) I seem to be doing rather well at the moment so fingers crossed i will start loosing weight again. I finally plucked up the courage to weigh myself and i have put on 4 pounds :( ( hyperventilates) 4 Pounds is alot and apparently makes the difference between which jeans i can wear and which i cant!

Anyway i have been getting up really really early and doing salsa before i eat breakfast to speed up my matabolism, then i have been eating two weetabix with hot water and a tiny drop of milk and a sliced bannana for breakie! For lunch i have taken to eating cup 'a' soup a genious invention! Thank the lord for Bachaelors cup 'a' soups! ( or weight watchers as the case maybe!) For my evening meal i have just been eating what dad cooks because he would have a fit if i suddenly turned into a fussy eater!

I am now beginning to realise just how much work i have to do and i need to start using my time more efficiently. I have already booked a computer to use after my english lesson you'll be pleased to know! I plan to write an essay about statutory interpretation and if anyone can help me with that tiny issue then feel free to comment anytime you like!

I must hurry off to english so have a good day and i'll see ya soon

love you loads like slimey toads xxxx 'A'